Learning as I go....

So, first of all....you know that 'post twice a day' thing I said yesterday?  Not gonna happen.

I did not post in the morning, but at least I am here in the evening.

So, what happened today that takes me closer to where I want to be?

I read a quote about Thoreau, which makes we want to re-read Walden Pond.  I would love a Walden Pond experience, but would prefer it to happen with a groovy, like-minded man.  True that.

Good things happened at work, meaning positive feedback about my contributions.  But there you have the 'external validation' again.  The goal is to feel good in spite of external messages.  To celebrate me regardless.  To know I add value even if not everyone sees it or acknowledges it.  To find my rewards internally.

I am beginning to accept that the house I visualize for the next phase of life is going to cost more than I would like to pay.  So I need to figure out whether I want to:  a) change my expectations or b) accept greater financial debt in the form of a mortgage.

But for now -

My daughter is watching TV and eating a salad next to me as I type.  We spent the past hour googling houses for sale in Ocean Grove and dreaming of moving there.  This, right here on my couch, is the best part of my day.